To My Middle Daughter;

My beautiful girl,

There is not a single day that goes by where I don’t think about you — where I don’t miss you so deeply it aches. You’ve always been my calm in the chaos, my thoughtful soul, my intuitive middle one. You saw the world in such a special way — not loud, not demanding, but meaningful, kind, and true. I loved that about you then, and I love it still.

It’s hard to find the right words for what has happened. None of this was your fault. None of it. And it breaks my heart to know how far apart we’ve become — not just physically, but in the silence between us. If I could undo it all and bring us back to those quiet moments we shared — baking, walking, cuddling, talking — I would in an instant.

I’ve tried to reach you. I’ve written, called, hoped. You may not have seen it, or maybe you couldn’t answer — and that’s okay. But I want you to know that I have never stopped trying, and I have never stopped loving you. Not even for a moment.

I don’t know what you’ve heard about me, but I hope someday you’ll want to know the truth — the truth from me, your mom, who has always, always wanted to be there for you. I didn’t leave you. I was pushed out. And I have been fighting, in every way I know how, to find a way back.

You have always had such a big heart. I felt it in the way you looked at people, the way you cared about your sisters, and the way you quietly carried so much more than anyone knew. I hope you still feel that heart beating strong. I hope you still know that love is not something that disappears — even when it gets blocked, broken, or buried under time.

If you ever wonder: Does Mom still think about me? The answer is yes, constantly.

If you wonder: Does she still love me? The answer is more than I can say.

If you wonder: Can we ever find our way back to each other? The answer is yes, always yes.

I will wait for you with open arms and an open heart. You don’t owe me anything. I just want you to know that when you’re ready, I’m here. I’ve never stopped being your mom. And I will never stop being your safe place.

I love you endlessly.

Mom